The waiting is killing...

• The only thing I hate is to wait. But, after I've with my husband, I've spent most of my time waiting. For the past 10 years I have with him, I've learnt how to manage the waiting and tolerate the waiting and at the same time enjoy myself while the waiting. 

  
  

  For the first few years before the arrival of kids, my phone has helped me to kill my time while waiting. After arrival of the kids, kids keep me busy while the waiting. However, most of time, I will rather do it myself instead of waiting for him, cause it will definitely many time faster. 

  
  

  However, this time, I really feel helpless and eventually I have stopped being excited now. Because, I totally no control into anything now.

  
  

  1- I don't know when he could settle the house there

  2- I don't know how fast our document will be approved

  3- I don't know when we could depart

  4- I don't know when will be my last day report to work

  5- I don't know where we will be staying there

  
  

  There are many question marks in my head, but yet no one could really give me any answer. Instead of waiting for the answer, I've told myself lets forget about the leaving and take own sweet time to prep ourselves. It definitely makes me happier and more relax. That's probably called "the art of living".